Well I guess it has been 3 years since my sweet mommy has been gone from this earth. In a way it doesn't seem fair! I mean shouldn't I be having a big celebration at my house tonight for her because she would be turning 50? And shouldn't she be able to raise her sweet little kids who are still @ home? Shouldn't my kids, my brothers & sisters kids have their grandma to spoil them & hype them up with sugar before returning them to us? And shouldn't I be able to call her up just because I need to hear her voice and no matter the situation or even what she says to me I feel so much better just because I talked to my mom? I guess I could go on & on about why it doesn't feel fair to me but where would that get me? Instead I choose to think of how happy she is in Heaven and that she is healthy!!! (No more of that crappy cancer!) I also choose to remember that the night she told me she was going to die she said it with a big smile on her face, like it was ok. Another thing I like to remember is that the day of her funeral, thanks to my great sis-in-law Marilla, her Uncle Jeff or Elder Holland I should say gave me the most wonderful blessing you could ever imagine and in the blessing he told me that my mom could actually do more for her kids in Heaven than she could on this earth! So I guess if I were to look at the big picture my situation will be better by her being sent home and leaving us all here for so long without her! I miss her more than I could ever even put into words! I love you mom & there will never be a day that passes in my lifetime that I don't think of you and miss you!
Minnie And Me
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